my last words to
this is for you insted of elf warrior on the panther.

you were right, I'm killing myself.
but I don't care, there's no reason to live anyway.
mwahahahahahahaaaaaaaa!

Ink, watercolours.
Last sunday night.

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Listening to: Dir En Grey - Mushi


I can't open myself up to anyone I can't believe in anyone at all
and I can't see anything the light that shines is disappearing, soon it will be gone
unable to open myself up this is my weakness, my past
I can get what I want, yet if I do, the kindness I'm holding onto will slip away
the typical answer is when you die, you'll be reborn, come back again

my heart is shuttered, soon it will break apart
stifling my tears, I laugh day after day
my heart has shown me that believing is nothing
those hypocrites killed me

my heart is shuttered, soon it will crumble away
stifling my tears, I scream day after day
my heart has left me with a belief in strength
my own heart killed me

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uchiakerarenai dare mo shinjirarenai dare mo kare mo
hora subete mienai sashikonda hikari ga kiete ima ni mo kareru
uchiakerarenai koto wa watashi no yowasa watashi no kako
eru mono mo aru keredo kitto te ni nigiru yasashisa ga kiete yuku to

kokoro ga tozashite ima ni mo kowarete yuku
namida wo koroshite warau hibi yo
kokoro ga shimeshita shinjiru imi no nasa wo
watashi wo koroshita gizen hito yo

eru mono mo aru keredo kitto te ni nigiru yasashisa ga
arifureta kotae wa ikiru koto hakushi ni modoshite umarekawaru

kokoro ga tozashite ima ni mo kuzureochiru
namida wo koroshite sakebu hibi yo
kokoro ga nokoshita shinjiru imi no tsuyosa
watashi wo koroshita watashi kokoro